I am wondering what I spent all my time doing before Quinn was born? I know I thought I was really busy and didn't have time to get things done... but now I REALLY don't have time. This summer is going to be a real test of time management. I will master going out with 2 children. I will get my butt back to the gym. I will have a clean house and cooked dinner. Some days at least ;) I love my girls but am struggling not to lose my mind. By the end of the week I am really not a nice Mommy.... especially with the lack of sleep.
Hailey has started to act out. I guess she is not happy with the lack of attention she is getting. I am surprised it took this long to really show itself. I am working to remember to take special moments with her and give her attention while Quinn is napping. Her tantrums and freak outs decrease dramatically when she receives this attention so I better keep it going so I don't go crazy.
Ian came home Friday night to a VERY crazy wife. I almost ran out the door saying "I just had to get away". You know that feeling where your heart is pounding and you are about to break down in tears in a complete melt down? That is what I had. I escaped just in time (thanks to my super husband). It was wonderful to drive a quiet van with no children demanding my attention - or repeating phrases over and over AND OVER. Is that normal for toddlers? Hailey will say the same sentence repeatedly, even after I have acknowledged and answered her. Make me CRAZY! Well I enjoyed my brief escape as I picked up a couple items at the store, filled the van with gas and picked up a booster juice for myself and my family. It was probably only a hour but I was able to come back calm and prepared to face bedtime... and what ended up being a bad night with Quinn.
I am so grateful for Ian! He knows when I need help and does whatever he can to make things easier for me. I am a truly blessed wife! I am also super grateful for my daughters. This young age isn't my favourite time but it is a precious time that I know I will miss as they become more independant.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Nursing...
Bahhhhhhhh, I hate nursing.... okay, sometimes it isn't bad... but mostly I STRONGLY dislike it. Does that make me a bad mother? It seems like everyone enjoys that special time with their baby. Maybe because I haven't had easy nursers. My girls both liked to chug as quick as they can gulping tons of air in the process. This means a lot of burping... A LOT! It is so time consuming and in the middle of the night that is not what I want to be doing. It usually involves 3 or 4 rounds of burping in one feeding. Both of my girls are/were also SUPER STRONG! They are never still unless they are asleep. I have to wrestle arms away from their mouths constantly, straighten tightly curled legs and rotate flailing heads. It is a battle. A battle intensified by their piercing screams for more food. As if those aren't enough reasons to dislike the process, add to it the leaking, painful 'let down' reflex, the fact that only I can do it, the public exposure and never being able to get away from baby. I just keep telling myself that it is best for her and I will sacrifice all the inconvenience, pain and torture for that.
Here is a list of pro's before I decide to quit nursing right now...
it is free
never have to carry bottles
doesn't require heating
lets me see my baby every 3 hours (okay that is a stretch because at 4 am I would rather not see her)
it will strengthen her immune system
hmmmm.. that's about all I can come up with.
Anyone else hate it but still stuck with it?
Thursday, June 9, 2011
A baby Story!
Well tomorrow is my due date! I can't believe that Quinn should still be in my tummy! I knew she would be early but I never expected 3 weeks early. It already seems like she has been in our family FOREVER ;) We love our loud, short sleeping Quinn! I can't wait though till she sleeps longer than 2-3 hrs at a time. I'm pooped!
Here is the story of Quinn's birth (without any graphic details):
This pregnancy I started having braxton hicks contractions at 27 weeks. They occured almost 10 times a day and would happen if I lifted anything, bent over, walked anywhere or ran errands. These contractions increased in quantity and severity over the remaining 10 weeks of my pregnancy so I was pretty certain that this couldn't occur so regularly and so strongly without it resulting in an early delivery. I'm sure glad it did. No one enjoys those last weeks of being pregnant.
2 days before Quinn was born I was having regular contractions every 8-12 min in the morning and then they would become irregular in the afternoon. We had our annual May Long Weekend BBQ planned for the next day so I was contemplating whether to cancel it or not. We decided to go ahead with it as nothing happened over night on Friday. Saturday was busy preparing for the BBQ and like the day before my contractions were regular but didn't seem to get any closer together.... until the BBQ. I wasn't timing them at this point but they were probably 5-8 minutes apart. I still didn't think at this point that it was really happening. The BBQ was a hit and a great distraction from what was really occuring. I laid down after everyone left (while my wonderful family did all the clean up) and the contractions continued to get closer and stronger. By 11 pm I figured I should call my doula to come by and we went for a walk. Everything slowed down during the walk so I figured it was a false alarm and sent the doula home to sleep.
*during all of this Ian and I agreed that if it was really happening tonight that he needed to sleep so that he had the energy to support me through a night of labour (I sure wish I could have slept). He got in a good 4 hrs before I woke him up.
The doula suggested I take a bath. If it is real labour it will pick it up quickly... and if it isn't the contractions should stop. Well as soon as I got out the contractions were 4 min apart and super intense. We left right away for the hospital at 1 am and called our doula to meet us there. When we got to the hospital I was only 2 cm BOOOO! All you Mom's know what terrible news that is! I decided I wasn't going to lay in bed suffering (as this is the most painful position EVER) so we got up and moved around to speed things along. Of course this was not okay with the old, CRANKY nurse I had. Why do I always get the mean ones? She had to get over it though. I wasn't going to suffer like I did last time because I didn't know that I could help labour along rather than lay there and just endure it. Thank you doula Jenna for fighting the nurse with me! The contractions were 2 min (or less) apart and super strong. I was so tired as it was already 2 am and I didn't think I would get through it. This time I wanted to go drug free. I delievered Hailey without an epidural but had morphine and laughing gas. The drugs made me all loopy and I really didn't remember much about her birth. I wanted to try without anything this time so that I could remember it. NEVER AGAIN! I am so proud of myself for doing it but I remember EVERYTHING and it is TERRIBLE. The contractions are the worst part. Pushing the baby out is easier as you know the end is near.
Within 2 hrs I was 5-6 cm and they moved me to the delivery room in case things progressed very quickly. It took about another hr to get to 10 cm and then it was pushing time. It took less than 15 min to get her out. She didn't cry much but had great apgar scores and the nurses said she didn't seem like an early baby. So maybe the dates were just wrong.
Ian was AMAZING! He was so supportive and did anything I asked/told him too :) That nap he had before ended up being a huge blessing for me as he was 100% there for me. He didn't get faint this time and was right by my side the whole time. I don't think he even left to go to the bathroom once :) I was so grateful to have him there.
My doula, Jenna Noble was a huge asset. We weren't sure about having one but it ended up being a huge blessing. She gave us both confidence and encouragement. Though I did want to strangle her if she said one more time "your almost done"!
It was crazy at the hospital, 7 babies were born that night. Turns out it was a full moon. Hailey was born on a new moon and it was also crazy busy. What is with that? And why do my babies like to torture me with labour all night long? Next time I want to have a full night sleep before I have a baby.
Our little girl was here, and nameless for the time being! Weighing in at 6 lbs 9 oz and measuring 21 inches long. We spent the morning discussing names and decided on Quinn Emma. Hailey came by later that day to meet her sister. She was semi-excited but mostly wanted to run around the hospital. I am so grateful my parents had come out that weekend to help us with house projects. It was perfect and they were a great help with Hailey.
It has been 2.5 weeks now and we are starting to get used to having a baby around. I sleep very little and have very little patience for my whiney toddler but we are managing. I love my girls to bits and am looking forward to the coming weeks/months of sunshine, seeing my sister, attending my brother's wedding and hopefully... sleeping more :)
a new blog banner and title are coming as soon as we get some family pictures
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
difficult to do
I have begun to find the following things are very difficult to do when you are VERY pregnant:
putting on socks and shoes
carrying laundry baskets
shaving your legs (near impossible now)
bending over to pick things up
sleeping
walking more than 100 meters
Things that are WAY easier to do when you are very pregnant are:
eating
napping
crying
I haven't exhausted the list in any way.... but I have become exhausted!
putting on socks and shoes
carrying laundry baskets
shaving your legs (near impossible now)
bending over to pick things up
sleeping
walking more than 100 meters
Things that are WAY easier to do when you are very pregnant are:
eating
napping
crying
I haven't exhausted the list in any way.... but I have become exhausted!
Friday, May 13, 2011
Baby come out.....
Please baby come out..... Mommy is tired! Oh wait, that may not help that situation very much now will it? I can at least look forward to being 1 million times more comfortable in the next 4 weeks. I'm hoping in 2 :) Of course I think I am more terrified of giving birth this time as I know what is coming. I find myself wishing for the ignorance of a first time parent again :) I was sent into the hospital last week for a NST to check on the baby because her heart rate was high (don't worry everything is fine)... but just being in the same room where Hailey was born brought EVERYTHING all back. Interesting how you forget about those things when cute chubby cheeks and little bums monopolize your thoughts!
Now the question is 'what do I do with this little lady when baby decides to come?' It was so much easier with the first delivery because I didn't have to care for another child. What do you do with your kids when you go into labour? I sure wish my Mom lived in the same city.
We are doing well though and are very excited to meet our new daughter/sister. I can't imagine what it will be like with 2..... heaven help us :)
Now the question is 'what do I do with this little lady when baby decides to come?' It was so much easier with the first delivery because I didn't have to care for another child. What do you do with your kids when you go into labour? I sure wish my Mom lived in the same city.
We are doing well though and are very excited to meet our new daughter/sister. I can't imagine what it will be like with 2..... heaven help us :)
Monday, May 9, 2011
Mother's Day
Thank you Ian and Hailey for making this Mother's Day special :)
It was an extra special treat to speak to my sister serving a mission in Idaho as we got to use Skype video this time. We woke up Hailey from her nap so she could see her auntie as she hasn't seen her in over a year. We did suffer with a very cranky girl the rest of the day but it was worth it to see my sister so excited to talk to her neice. We look forward to her homecoming this fall!
My beautiful anniversary/Mother's Day flowers (both events were only a few days apart so I have been pretty spoiled :)
A picture with my girl(s)!
The belly at 35 weeks
My greatest blessing....... and challenge :)
More Growing
Hailey and Dad were out in the garden this weekend turning the soil and adding compost to prepare for planting. We are going to try planting this week... a little bit early so we are hoping it doesn't get too cold again!!!!
Ian grew up learning how to grow things with his Mom.... she has a great garden every year. He is now passing on his knowledge to Hailey (and letting her get dirty right along with him). My mom also had a small garden each year which we were responsible for helping with. It was never my favourite thing as a kid (except for the eating part) but now I am finding great satisfaction in helping things grow (as long as I am fully covered from head to toe and wearing gardening gloves - partly due to allergies and partly due to a dislike of bugs and all things dirty).
It is so exciting to see Ian teaching Hailey about the things he knows. He is a great teacher and Hailey loves to soak it all in :)
Hailey planted these with Grandma Laycock during Easter holidays. She loves checking them everyday to see what is happening. She says "more growing" over and over and over!
Ian was also putting in our sprinkler system in the front yard this weekend. He has such great skills :)
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